...because that's literally all I could keep saying the entire episode.
By now I'm hoping you've figured out that if you haven't seen the most recent episode, His Last Vow, that there will be unmarked spoilers in this entire post. You've been warned.
This entire Sherlock episode seemed to be aimed at turning fans every which way, and making us scratch our heads as much as we possibly could. "What do you mean Sherlock's on heroin? What do you mean he's done this before? He's got a girlfriend now? What the fuck?" And so went the entire episode. Obviously, in the back of your head, you're wondering how on earth they're going to pull this one together, but as always... they do.
I think this might have been one of my favorite episodes character-wise, because you begin to see more and more pieces of Sherlock that you didn't see in the first and second series. You begin to understand more about him as a character, more about his morals and his motivations. We see a detective who is bored, flawed, and wholly self-aware despite how much he pretends not to be. And ohhhh, how I love that Sherlock.
After The Empty Hearse, I found myself noticing that they were starting to push Sherlock to a somewhat darker place at the same time as they start to push his friendships into better places. The scene with in Mycroft's office where he's getting a shave really stuck with me, because Sherlock's anger really was a dark, dangerous anger. A few people said it was righteous anger, but I disagree. Righteous anger is explosive and doesn't really settle down until its had its say. Sherlock, on the other hand, is well in control of the anger, and yet still letting it show. It's much more menacing, and then all the sudden, he puts on a straight face and goes back to getting a shave. It's one of the first moments where you look at him and think "He really is a sociopath!"
This episode seems to bring that back. We begin to see him as someone who believes that the ends justify the means. Leading Janine on to get to her boss is justified because her boss was bad. Doing heroin was justified because it would make Magnussen underestimate him. And in the end, killing Magnussen in cold blood is justified because it will keep John and Mary safe. If we didn't already love him so much, we'd probably think he was a rather terrible person! But, we don't because they've told the story so well that by now we're convinced that it is all justified. And of course it is. Because Moriarty is back!